It's a saturday and i've been at home the whole day working on my research project till about 3p.m-ish with two groupmates, except during lunch. You know, there are just some days when you're bored to the core but you just don't want to go out. Well, today is one of those days, for me. I don't want to go out, get dolled up and smile like everything is okay. Truth is it's not, but I can't exactly figure out what is wrong. Perhaps, deep down I know what is wrong, but I want to look past it because I don't have the answers. Maybe.
The exam stress is really pulling me down down down! During this time, when I really need certain people around me, they are not. I guess I can't expect them to be there for me all the time. I mean, they have their own lives too right? But I just can't help it at times. No matter how busy or tied down I maybe, I always always find the time for the people close to my hear, that is just the way I am. So, unintentionally I tend to expect the same from people. The emptiness I felt few days ago, is still there. I try to listen to songs ; happy songs or even sad songs, the emptiness doesn't go. I talk to people, pretend that i'm perfectly fine, hoping that the pretence will come off real and actually last. But it didn't help. I tried reading conversations of good times I missed, the hollow hole in my gut just got worst.
So, i'm here blogging about it because I just won't know how to explain it to some one and it'd be rather too boring.
Here is the link to a song that my heart wants to sing aloud for the people I truly miss effing much! - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ckqv9juxCkc
Do check it out and hope ya'll like it ;)
So cheers to a dull saturday!
xoxo
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