Would you save my soul tonight?

Week 2 down ; 6 papers down and 2 more to go.

Can you believe how fast time flew? Wow. But then again, I can't help but keep thinking about how I did this semester. I feel like I didn't do well at all, like really bad. It's been one of my toughest semester ever. I want to say I did my best, but was my best actually my best and was it good enough? Not at all. Even the thought of it gives me a massive headache and sends me right down to the pit. I can't move pass this thought... Sigh~

Anyway, the next 2 papers are major. Like major, Major with a capital M.
But I have lots planned for my whole month of semester break.
Hence, agenda for this week till thursday : Study like my life depends on these papers (geez, if only i had this agenda at the begining of the exams!).

adios amigos

xoxo

This is NOT it

So, I'm done with 3 papers and week one. What's left? 5 more freaking papers and 2 more much dreaded weeks! The first week wasn't so bad. I mean, the exam wasn't easy. When has any exam ever been easy? But then again, it was not that bad nor was it easy. When people ask, "So, how did you do?", I'd just ask them to wait for my results to be out, and then they tell me, instead.

Yesterday, I slept so much as if my exams were over! But I guess the very lack of sleep during the week just drained me out. Some nights, I just stayed awake the whole night studying. Especially when there is a game on. Exam seaons SHOULD NOT coincide with football seasons. It's wrong, very wrong.

I can't wait for exams to be over already, so many plans lined up. Two of my most favourite people are coming back from overseas (they're overseas for study purposes). I remember waiting so long for their return, and now its less then a month! *shriekss*

Okay. aneetha, stay focused! 5 more papers, 2 more weeks! Sigh.

"We don't have to be in love. We can just be friends and I will be right there begining to the end."

xoxo

Quickyy

My final exams start tomorrow (5/7/2010). So, I'm gonna go MIA for a while.

Be patient, aight & a big thank you to those who are keeping me in their prayers!

Lots of love

xoxo

So little time, so much to do!

I'm stealing a bit time to update my blog. So this is going to be a short post. Semester 3 finals begin next monday and I am FREAKING out, literally.

Confidence level? Extremely low.
Energy level? Extremely low.
Brain capacity? Extremely low.

Nevertheless, I am still pushing on and trying. Go aneetha.

Lately I've been hooked to this one song. It's from a movie and it's a dad singing to his daughter. Listening to this song mixes my feelings up. This song makes me miss my dad really much and also makes me miss my childhood days as a carefree little girl. Oh well, we all have to grow up someday, right?

So here is the link to the song, if you're interested in listening
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9I5UV4VWCSk&feature=related

Till next time.

xoxo

Keep striving.

Life is going to bring us all down one day. But it's all in us to fight our way back up. Lately, I've been so fragile and vulnrable to so many things. It feels like i'm at the bottom of everything. But as I was sitting outside of my house earlier on, I realize I have goals and dreams to fulfill. I have a responsibility to many people and things in my life. I cannot let petty issues or things bring me down.
So, i'm going to fight my way right pass all of these. Yes, I might fall again, but I am still going keep the fighting spirit in me and persevere.
I know what I want, and I am going acheive it. Who cares if it is going to take me a longer time to see my dreams come through. It's not how fast I reach the top, it's how I do it. They say, slow and steady wins the race. So that is how I'm going to do it. At my own pace, according to my abilities and capabilities.
I don't have to live up to the worlds expectations or standards. I am me and this is my fight.

Hold my hand as I'm lowered.

Have a great day, people of the world.

xoxo

Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age and dreams are forever.

It's a saturday and i've been at home the whole day working on my research project till about 3p.m-ish with two groupmates, except during lunch. You know, there are just some days when you're bored to the core but you just don't want to go out. Well, today is one of those days, for me. I don't want to go out, get dolled up and smile like everything is okay. Truth is it's not, but I can't exactly figure out what is wrong. Perhaps, deep down I know what is wrong, but I want to look past it because I don't have the answers. Maybe.

The exam stress is really pulling me down down down! During this time, when I really need certain people around me, they are not. I guess I can't expect them to be there for me all the time. I mean, they have their own lives too right? But I just can't help it at times. No matter how busy or tied down I maybe, I always always find the time for the people close to my hear, that is just the way I am. So, unintentionally I tend to expect the same from people. The emptiness I felt few days ago, is still there. I try to listen to songs ; happy songs or even sad songs, the emptiness doesn't go. I talk to people, pretend that i'm perfectly fine, hoping that the pretence will come off real and actually last. But it didn't help. I tried reading conversations of good times I missed, the hollow hole in my gut just got worst.

So, i'm here blogging about it because I just won't know how to explain it to some one and it'd be rather too boring.

Here is the link to a song that my heart wants to sing aloud for the people I truly miss effing much! - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ckqv9juxCkc
Do check it out and hope ya'll like it ;)

So cheers to a dull saturday!

xoxo

People always leave.

In the middle of the desert ; Abu Dhabi, UAE 2009

Lab days are over, one more to go for finals. Then i'm free for the next month. Yay much.

So, I said i'll update more. Yes, I'm going to do so. Patience. I have been really busy. Dad came back after many months, was sooooo good seeing him. But then he was here for only 10 days. Too darn short. I was so busy with final exams approaching, that I didn't get much time to spend with him and with camp that took place last weekend. I wish I had more time. But oh well, he came back and I did get to spend what-little-time with him, thats all that matters.

He just left for UAE a while ago. I feel at the bottom of everything right now. Study stress, the eery silence of the house, the emptiness in me and just the exhaustion. Misery, pure misery.

Why do people have to leave? Especially the close ones to me. I wish I can keep them all in a treasure box and not share them. Yes, I hate sharing the people close to my heart with other. I am selfish when it comes to this. I want them all to myself. But unfortunately, I don't always get what I want in life. :( Also, I don't do goodbyes well. I was in my room when dad was leaving, on purpose. Till mom came calling me to go down, because the car was here to take him to the airport. I had to hold everything back, and smile while waving goodbye. I always tell my mom, when I leave to go overseas to further my studies, I don't want any family members coming to see me off. Sometimes its better that way, I guess. Though I have been doing goodbyes all my life, year in and year out, somehow i've never got the hang of it and I doubt I ever will.

Anyhoo, father's day is this sunday, and my dad will be in UAE. So here's the advance wish to my dad... (in case I don't have time to post this up)

Happy father's day, daddy. Thank you for everything that you've done and sacrificed for me just to give me happiness and comfort in life. I'm truly blessed to have a father like you and a wonderful family. May God always protect you and be with you, as you're so far away from home. You are always missed and I always look forward when you come home or when we visit you over there in UAE. I love you, daddy! <3

xoxo

Tuesday blues?

Hey guys.

So here is the thing. I never really liked tuesdays. Particularly, because tuesdays are lab practical days. FYI, I hate labs. So, today we had an assesment, it wasn't all that tough, but somehow the lecturer asked the question in a twisted way, which made the preparations tough. This ruined my mood. But I still have an assignment to finish, due tomorrow and a test to study for, which is also tomorrow!

So here is the brief update :) loves <3

xoxo

Weekenddddd.

Its the weekends, yay much. So much for being excited during the week. I had a really good friday, did some shopping and spent quality time with a friend after so long. Oh, managed to catch a movie too - Nightmare in Elm Street. At first I was like, "Ohkay, horror? Are you kidding me?". She was so insistant and i was a good sport, despite my "love" for horrow movies. Ended up, it was a pretty good movie, not too scary, only certain parts.

Then saturday (today) came, my phone has been ringing non-stop but I don't really mind, because its just my bestfriend. But what had been bugging me is that, my bestfriend really needed to see me and I couldn't make it. I feel horrible not being able to be there physically for my bestfriend. I feel like i've broke my promise to my bestfriend, but it wasn't intentional. Oh well, I cannot be there for everyone. I'm not superwoman, I'm not God. I'm human.

What a weekend, most definately not one to be dreamt of on Monday in class.

Tune in!

xoxo

So, let's go our separate ways.

Life has been a little bit hectic. Correction, very. But tell me when does life give you a break? Never. Period.
It's like you just can't help but wonder, when the close ones around you know that you've got so much on your plate, why add on to the stress? I just wish certain people will be more understanding and not simply make assumptions as they wish. Ask me if there is anything. But that won't happen, right? I know. Sigh..

Anyway, I think basically I revived my blog just to let out my frustrations. Ever had so many friends but never the right one to talk to? Or perhaps the right one is there, but just too caught up with other stuff? Yeah, that is how it is.
So, my blog maybe a little depressing at times, but the sun will shine again soon. Hopefully.
That's it for now.

xoxo

REVAMPPPP

Hey people, guess what? I'll be blogging again! This seems like the best place where I can actually pour out my feelings..

Look forward :)

xoxo